Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Pizza

I never really loved pizza. Of course I thought it was good. And I certainly enjoyed it. But now that I haven't had pizza, and have not been allowed to have pizza since May 8th, I MISS IT! I really miss it a lot! Its not just pizza, but all the other things that I can't eat. It's difficult sitting with other people at lunch, or dinner when they are eating things that I can't. And I do that every single day! I hate it. I was told not to eat those items so I don't. I'm afraid to eat the things. The only time I could is if my doctor, or perhaps my parents told me I could. It isn't like I'm dying of hunger, there certainly are things I can eat. But I don't know if anyone realizes what I would do far a piece of pizza, or a slice of bread, or any of the other million things I can't have. I've thought about cheating, but I can't I feel guilty about even thinking I might cheat.

I can't live the rest of my life like this! And, it's not like my sickness is completely gone. I still get sick sometimes. I really think I am just a medical mystery. And I would agree to do one of those testing things, I would keep a medical journal about my daily food intake and such, and then they could pay me, I could get paid just for being sick, and for the fact that my doctors can't figure out what is wrong with me!

I am growing to loathe, hate, and disdain my health. My blood pressure is excellent, almost too low...most of the time...my weight is not out of control, all my blood tests come back normal. The few things that people say could possibly be wrong with me may pause or lessen the problem...but it comes back. Maybe I should just pray more, and complain less. I'm sorry for this rant...after writing this I feel bad...but I still feel that I should post this. So, just in case anyone had any doubts on how this new 'diet' was going...now you all know!




Luv ya all!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I would have never survived as long as you with all your ristrictions. I eat pizza once a week it seems like and wheat at every meal. I felt your pain when I tried to put myself on a deit of just meat but that lasted all of two days. Cheese is my favorit food accessory.

Tim Parenti said...

Indeed, I give you credit for not being able to eat practically anything since Andrea Day.

And the sad part is that you could possibly nicely supplement your income just by being mysteriously sick.

Tim Parenti said...

By the way, I was typing the title for my next post into the box on grandpa's computer, and one of the options that popped up was the title of this post. When are you going to write the second episode? It's been almost a year!

Lexi Elizabeth said...

i would hate to have restrictions on the foods i can eat. especially since i'm such a pick eater anyways. :'( i wish i could help and make you all better.