Talk to Myself

I think it is funny when motivational speakers come to our school because always, at some point they ask if we talk to ourselves. And then they pause and imitate what they think is going through peoples heads. They say that some people admit to talking to themselves, and then they say that everyone else is sitting there saying "hmm I wonder if I talk to myself," and then those people decide that they don't talk to themselves, and then the motivational speaker says those people are silly because they were just talking to themselves when they said "hmm I wonder if I talk to myself"...although most people didn't really say that they just thought it.

I was always one of the people that completely admitted to talking to themself. I talk to myself a lot. Or maybe I think to myself a lot not really talking to myself a lot. That was the conclusion I sorta came up with, that I think to myself a lot and I just talk to myself a little bit.

Then I thought about it more, and I realized everyone thinks to themselves...Do you know anyone who thinks to everyone else...No! So I can't say I think to myself a lot, because that really isn't what I mean, I suppose.

I like reading a lot, (and no this isn't just digression, it does have a point) a lot of the books I read have characters that will do something and then will think things like "oh my gosh, that was stupid, why did I do that" you know, situations where the characters thoughts are on the page, and they are thinking about themselves, or their friends and how people act.

I always thought that those parts of books was stupid and unrealistic. I always though, well i don't sit there and think how stupid somethind I do is after I do it...and then I realized YES I DO! I do that all the time. I have a very interesting running commentary to my life that runs through my head. My conscience, the little angel and devil on my shoulders are very talkative, just like myself. So does that count as talking to myself. Because if it does than I talk to myself a whole lot.

Although I also talk to myself the other way, you know the way where you actually are verbally speaking. I do that too, I'll sit in my room cleaning, or doing my homework, or playing tennis etc. and I'll be talking to myself, reminding myself of things I forgot, or saying things like "OO I can't believe I missed that" or "Come on just concentrate". Which can be very interesting to anyone that happens to be listening to me. I'm sure if someone recorded me while I played tennis it would be funny, I'd be talking randomly, and even singing quietly sometimes.

My mind is probably never on one single topic, my head is always off in the clouds. Perhaps that is why I can't fall asleep without laying there for several hours.

Another thing that sort of goes along with that is when I am just laying in bed I start to daydream I guess, I start imagining conversations, I imagine what would happen if I was talking to someone, and what they would say and how I would respond. Or if I was in the hospital or on Survivor, things like that, and I imagine conversations, and if I get bored I pick up the conversation where I left off last time I thought about it.

I wonder a lot if other peoples minds work like that or if that is just me. I wonder what a psychologist would say to me if he could see what was in my mind. My mind contains the most random things. I wonder if a psychologist would say I was insane, I wonder if I would be studied a lot, or if they would just say I'm normal. I think the only other person I know whose mind is probably similar to mine is Andrea.

I don't know, this was a very random post. I'm sure I forgot things that I really wanted to say, I sort of just wrote it as I thought it, although i did go back and add stuff occasionally. (If only the people studying me from that college could have read this post, it would be very interesting to see their reactions.) Oh and I just thought about it now but this whole post reminded me that I think too much, which reminded me on another post just about that!

Oh, and in conclusion, I think about everything non-stop, and I talk to myself a lot. Yep just in case you missed those messages they really were talked about somewhere in there!

If you think I missed explaining anything thoroughly enough leave a comment and I can always add on to my random thoughts.

Luv ya all!