Bikini's

Alright, I'm warning everyone now, this post is all about me and other people wearing bikini's, if you don't want to read about that then don't I'm not forcing anyone to read this, of course I would like it if people would read it, because why else would I write it, I don't write things for the enjoyment of writing...well in some cases I suppose I do, but in the case of posts such as this it is more on the side of writing for an audience. So, yes, I would prefer for people to read this.

So, this is the first year that I have actually had a bikini, which I kinda think is weird, because (not counting when I was like 3) I haven't worn a bikini until now, when I'm sixteen. And I've been thinking about it, whenever I wear one piece swim suits or tankini's...(which are different from bikini's because they cover the stomach) whenever I wear those I feel self-conscious...I always feel like everyone is looking at me and thinking how fat I look, or stuff like that, and then when I wear bikini's I don't feel self-conscious at all....

That is the weird thing, one would think that I would feel worse with more skin showing...but I don't I feel like all of the other people at the beach or the pool. You know the people that are wearing bikini's but probably shouldn't be. But, hey, at least I fit in! Which has led to my conclusion that I didn't feel self-conscious about my weight, I felt self-conscious because I was wearing a suit that was a completely different style from everyone else there. Odd, isn't it. So, now I'm wondering if I'm alone in that thought, or if other bikini wearing people agree with me.

So I did some research. I searched for reasons women don't wear bikini's and I found some research results. Apparently out of all the things women fear 'being seen in public in a bikini' is number three (after heights and spiders). The research was all very interesting but no site had anything about feeling self-conscious in non-bikini's because everyone else have them on.

LOL, I must just be weird! Like we didn't know that already. Now i'm not sure if this all makes sense, but i'm going to post it anyways because I feel like it!


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