College

My cousin TJ is going off to college soon. I have been looking since before freshman year at colleges, I really am excited to go myself. But it has always seemed so far away. Now that TJ is going off it is a bit scary, I only have two more years and I'll be there. I know some people still haven't started to look for colleges or even given them a passing thought. Maybe I'm just weird...ok I know I am weird but I'm kind of worried. I want to get into the right college, I want to learn all I can. I want to get the job that I want, and I want to have the life that I want. I want to stop worrying about it. I feel that 2 years is sooo not enough time to do all I want to do. I want to accomplish so much, and I don't have the time, I know I don't have the time. Just look at my extracurricular activities:

Tennis (fall)

Musical (spring)

FBLA

Yearbook

NHS

Revolution (the club Andrea and I are starting, as if I need more to do! lol)

Ok, so thats all my extracurricular, plus I want to have a job during the school year, and then I have my classes, which are all honors classes, except my AP English, and my electives. I only have a half year study hall, and I am going to use that to go to my doublt Chemistry once a week, and the rest of the days I'm going to be an office helper for Mr. K.

On top of that I sell avon, and I'm looking for my perfect college, and trying to make myself better for colleges. Also I find myself comparing myself with TJ, which is stupid, TJ is like valedictorian, he is so unbelievably smart, he got accepted to Pitt, Case Western, and Carnegie Mellon...he is going to Pitt on this huge scholarship.

It isn't that I'm competing to be better than TJ. I just want to be good enough. I don't know.

I still like the idea of Hospitality Management, but I can't decide what area, I don't know if I want to own a hotel, or restaurant, or if I want to be an event planner, or what? This whole college thing is baffling me. I just don't know what I want, or what I'm good at, or what I can do to make colleges want me...well maybe after TJ gets settled into college life he can give me some tips.

Luv ya all!